(I'm writing in honour of Yesterday)

The Graduation Night.
It finally came.

So lets see...girls were supposed to wear SKIRTS, no pants, jeans etc.
So I wore a really really long white skirt.
So long that I still regret it. ^^;
Okaa helped me to choose it and so on and so forth.
The thing was, when I arrived at school, I realized(uneasily) that many people were staring at me.
I dunno...
And then...CRAP!
Many people kept commenting that I looked sexy or that I was going to a wedding or something like that.
It really kinda pissed me off.
I mean, like... WHAT THE HELL IS SO SEXY???!!!
It looked perfectly normal to me.
Nosestud Girl even said that I was daring and that my parents weren't strict (about what I wore).

Come to think of it, whenever I wear a top that my Okaa chooses, people will always end up commenting that it was sexy.

...

Yeah...I wonder why too...

*(clears throat)*

You know something?
At first when I went into the school, I felt really giddy.
Too many people!!!!!!
I was not used to so many people and then...as the time past by, I was aware of myself becoming increasingly self-conscious.

And then...the b** strap at the back was showing.
So it was really irritating and many of the girls kept telling me about it.
Otherwise...It was great.

Anyway, the 'great' part only came when we were to go to the hall.
I was so freakily afraid of going up on stage to shake that Principal's hand and bow in front of so many humans!!!!!!

My stomach was positively churning.
But I managed to get through it.
Oh well.
Those crappin' shoes were so SHARP!!!!!
I was sure they were slicing through my skin...

Ni-chan had blisters too.
And here Otoo kept trying to take pics of the class (which is GOOD!) unlike MINE who was constantly trying to take pics of my freakish face.

I loved the performance.
Though I was never very close to my other classmates, I didn't know why; but I felt a spark of pride at their performance.

But the bloody thing was, when Nosestud Girl, Boo-chan and I were at the gallery, that baka sensei (which I dunno her name) told me that my b** strap(at the back; is it called a b*** strap in the 1st place?) could be seen.
She told me to go to the toilet and tighten the thing that was suffocating me.
...
pissed.

Anyway, my 2 loyal pals went to the toilet with me, while saying that it wouldn't make a difference and that tat sensei was very tranditonial (Indian).

So we went to the toilet and sure enough, the thing could not be possibly tight enough so I figured that if I held up the top with my underarms, the bl**** sensei wouldn't notice.
Who cares?

Nosestud Girl was reluctant to go up to the gallery again because of that sensei but I told her that we shouldn't be afraid of her.
We didn't get into trouble anyways.

The good-byes were sad.
The farewell hug had hurt.
But I KNOW we will be meeting each other 4 years later.
_____________________________________________________________________________________

Then there was still cell.
I went to cell in hope that I could fit in.
But then...
I still couldn't.
I still felt like an outsider.
I will never fit in...I guess.

TADA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!♪♪♪

So there you have it!
One eventful night cut short by me coz I'm too lazy to type it all out in elaborate detail.
...
Jyaa~~~~~~♥♥♥

Oh wait.
I forgotten to mention that something disturbing came up with my Okaa.
There is this lump, as big as a 50 cent coin at her stomach.
I really hope nothing will happen to her.
I had this prob once, but the lump appeared at my underarm but shrank away a few months ago.
May God Bless my Okaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Though the Title says "Sniff...", I'm feeling rather hyper and positively HAPPY!
Maybe it's because of a totally wacky vid I managed to take just now.
Of Li Shan murdering me or something like that.
My screaming and stuff made it so funny and the look on Ni-chan's face really makes me wanna laugh.
Nosestud Girl and Boo-chan were sort of doing a news report of something and Nosestud Girl kept ranting on about meeting ten years later and seeing our children and all those dumb stuff that she would ramble on and on...

Actually, we planned to meet each other (Ni-chan, Nosestud Girl, Boo-chan and Me) 4 years later at the main gate of our school (Yew Tee Primary) at 15 November 2011.
Nothing much has been decided really but I hope we can still meet.

That's why I'm rather sad, I guess.
I really love them you know?

Nothing much to be said for now (ugh. that incident HAD better NOT happen again...)

I'll rant later on...^^

Jyaa~~~~~~~~~~~♥♥♥

Oh yeah.
Today I had a freaky dream of not being able to pass my PSLE.
...

When I said I wanted a more interesting day, I SOOOOO didn't mean THIS!!! :

I was using the comp when Okaa ordered me to buy bread.
"Don't buy the Top 1," she had said. (At that moment, I KNEW that something bad was going to happen). "buy the Sunny one" and gave me the money ($1.10) while telling me that the Top 1's bread was very hard.

So I went to the EconMart near to my flat.
I was aware that my b** was showing through my clothing (I wanted to change it but wanted to save time...)
So I was hoping that if I walked fast enough, no one would notice until they really stare...(damned perverts).

So when I reached thet bloody place, (AARRGHH...getting pissed...><)there was this f****** old man (Sorry for using the F-word, Ni...I'm really getting MAD...) who kept staring at me.
At first I tried to ignore him but as I continued to stare in increasingly despair at the shelf-which-don't-have-the-Sunny-bread-and-only-have-those-other-bread-which-I-don't-know-but-have-the-Top-1-bread-too, that dirty old geezer was definitely staring at my "there".

FUCK DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (opps...I use that when I'm really mad...(nice combination dun cha' think?))

So I went back empty-handed and black-faced and asked my mom, "It's not the Sunshine one right?"
Then she said (angrily) that it was 'Sunny' not 'Sunshine' and that Sunshine was damn expensive.

As I recalled...there WASN'T A 'Sunny' at all!!!!!!!!
I think I glared at her.
But if she caught me...
Anyways, I went up to change to prevent that crapping thing from happening again.
So after that, I walked an even FARTHER distance to a coffee shop which has a shop near it or something like that.
So I went in to that shop(legs are ACHING...) and found the bread section.
Guess what?
There WAS the 'Sunny' bread there.
BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!
It cost $1.30 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So when i went back empty-handed (again) with a blacker face and that stinking money, my Okaa was like so mad.

But CRAP!!!!!!

IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT THE BLOODY SHOP INCREASED THE PRICE OR SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i didn't know why my Okaa gave me this withering look.
...
It ain't fair but I'm not going to complain on and on about it.

Realization: I know why I keep turning my head 180 degrees. My hair(ewwwwwww...) keeps blacking most of my view. So swiveling my head here and there helps me to have more view. Looking out for cars etc...

Confession: I know I shouldn't used any vulgarities but I was really really mad.

Confession 2: I'm not sure whether that old man was looking at...you know...but from his actions and body behaviour...it's really looked like it.






GOMENASAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \(T0T)/

Okay maybe being mean and stuff isn't really going to anything but to ruin the reputation I don't even have.

Okay.

Now my fingernails are still long and is thoroughly obstructing my means of typing properly.
They keep slipping and sliding...causing me to type the other keys I did not intend to.
The same thing happens when I play the piano.

I'm in school now, with nothing much to do.
I think I will borrow 'The Wizard of Oz' from the center)however you spell it) since I'm in need of travelling ideas.
Nay, I ain't gonna copy. Those who know me well, knows I HATE copying ideas from other stories.
It doesn't matter for school work but when it comes to story making...it's a whole lot different for me.

It's like...Hey!
YOU made the story.
YOUR story!
ALL by YOURSELF!!!
And then SOMEONE steals YOUR story which you strive so hard to make.

Awful, isn't it?
Okay, I have nothing to rant about for now.
...
Who knows?
Maybe as the day progresses there will be something more interesting.
For now...

Jyaa ne~~!!! ♥♥♥

I'm sick and tired of being happy and cheerful.
I wanna be MEAN.
But I can't.
I feel so stupid now.
So laid back.

No idea why too.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate myself lower than shit!

Since it's so secret, I have no idea why I'm telling it to the whole world.
...
But perhaps writing this can get the pain of my chest.

"I cannot love the things I love, in the fear of being called as a copycat"

Today...I woke up fuming mad realizing that I'd wasted my entire Morning!
I was like...cursing and cursing...
I mean...SERIOUSLY!
Sleeping is SO a waste of life.
Ok then...I'm going to make up for that by staying up till 1:30am.
YAY!!!!!! ANIME TIME!!!!!!!!!
Ai Yori Aoishi!
Love that anime loads...
^^

Oh yeah, still can't find that blasted Zodiac DVD...

^^~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You might think doggies like Goldie dun have expressions.
Well.
They do.
Here are some examples (OMGosh! So kawaii!!!!!)

When my Okka tells me to bring Goldie walkie: (Apparently he understands the word 'bring' and that really pisses me off.

Goldie would come to me with his eyes huge and his tail up; waiting for me to stand up.
These are the 2 scenarios:
1)I stand up and trudge to his leash, and he will be prancing around like a little puppy.Running here and there...sometimes it makes me mad to see him so happy. Oo
2)I don't get up and ignore him. He will be like, waiting expectantly at me, while wagging his tail hopefully. If I dun give him the response he wants, he will GO TO OKAA and somehow, Okaa will shout at me to bring him. I will be like, "Hahhhhhhh...................." and get away from what I'm doing.
Goldie will be frolicking around gleefully and throw me those 'Ha ha!' looks. now THAT pisses me off.
3) The third scenario is that I hope that Okaa will forget that I didn't bring him for his walkie. Goldie will SOMEHOW get Okaa to realize that fact. That, I dunno how he does it. Go ask him.

Okay...today, Goldie demonstrated another one of his expressions.
Washing his paws after his walkie(ugh, he hates the water):

At first, I will take off his leash and he will either go trotting or zooming to his water bowl. After I put back his leash and wear on his collar(except that today, he didn't want to wear it) and he will go to his bed and hope that I will forget to wash his paws. (That is rather impossible because from his flattened ears and at the body shape he is holding...you'd understand)
Anyways, today he hoped that I will leave him alone and forget.

When I wash his paws, he would be like...pressing himself against me, away from the tap with his ears flattened and head away;not focusing on me nor the water.

Well...sometimes he really has the 'i-have-human-expressions' kind of looks but I think I'm just kiddin myself.

LOLz

Wouldn't it be cool if he could talk?
I'd bet he'd say many things...






Kin=Golden

AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The totally baka sensei of 6J wants them to write that David Lim thing.
Wa kao!!!!!!!! (oops)
SHE"S SO FRIGGIN KIASUUU!!!!!!!
EVERYTHING ASO WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Force my friends to do things they dun want.
...
This also means more competition for me...
*shakes head*
Argh.
I'm noy supposed to be thinking of prizes and stuff but ... I can't help but wich I won something.
All my life I hardly won anything.
...
ANYWAY, THE BLOODY THING THAT PISSES ME OFF IS THAT SHE IS SO DAMN KIASU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Apparently, I'm feeling rather happy right this moment.
One things is that I can FINALLY settle down with a blogskin that seems to satisfy me.
And then, I made a new story!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But that was 2 or a day ago I think.
Wadevers.
Okay...I want to tak about yesterday (08/11/07).

Ok...cuz previously, Mr 'Rob Me' (I think he's name is spelt as Rodney, by the way)came up with thie seriously wack idea of the P6s having this Oymipic games thingy. Obviously I wasn't going to particpate in ANY as...hey! I HATE sports! And so that bl**dy idiot came out with a crazzeier idea of making the crest. Dunno wad mascot Beijing 2008.
...
Madam Chua IMMEIDATLY dragged me into it.
One part of me felt honoured for her picking me, another just went: "Ohhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Why ME???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
And the contest rules said that I needed 2 other paricipants with me.
As Ni-chan, Nosestud Girl, Boo-chan and I were kinda "stuck" with each other, it was kinda hard to select who should be in and out.
Of course I dragged Ni-chan in instantly.In the end, I think Boo-chan went in.
Madam Chua said if there were 4 paricipents, we would be DISQUALIFIED.
I jumped to that idea (but it didn't work out, duh)
I'm so unsportsmanshiply>>>ain't a word, boobs!

So wadever, yesterday I went to Ni-chan's house to do.
Wah...her house damn nice lorhs!
It's really ... special.
The artroom was like...WAO.
Awesome.
And her okaa's artworks were like...
DOUBLE WAO

So at first, we were like...how to start?
Then after a l o n g while, I started the torch while Ni-chan went nuts trying to find what colour is the Oylimpic rings coulour thingy.
...
Well...it took at least one hour to finally know that fact, and then...we took 3 bl**** long 3 hours to complete it.
It was fun, I admit.
At first, we planned it as 'carrot and onion rings'...but as we progressed, the torch and fire began to look...nice.
I loved the fire. It really looked like one.
Ni's okaa said something about not proportioned or something, then covered it up by saying 'artistic'.
Somehow, that began a joke for me and Ni-chan.
While we were doing it halfway,I commented that it looked like 'Noah's Ark in the middle of the sea on fire'.
We had a laugh over that.
To make a long story short, we forgot to put in the oinion rings and had to go into SO much trouble just to fix that.

At night, I suddenly remembered that we totally forgot about the words "Beijing 2008"
I was like..."Oh shit!"

But I couldn't call Ni...it was in the middle of the night siaas...
So I prayed to God that somehow, just SOMEHOW, Ni-chan would notice the missing words and fill it in.
And the thing was, I knew that she would remember.
...
Creepy and wonderful ain't that?
God is still with me.
(haha, Satan! You're lies are CRAP!!!)


About Todae:
Ni-chan DID remember.
^^
Oh wells.
Today, this guy named David Lim came to our school and gave us this really really really long speech.
He said that only 10-20 of us would benefit from it.
But wadever, he really...went through alot.
He's good.
Seriously.

At the end of his really really really really really...you get the point, long talk, he told us to write about 'Our Dreams and what would we do to achieve them'
Ni-chan encouraged me to write and so I did.
In fact, I finished it and will be posting it up soon.

(05/11/07)

Now I know why writers take years to type their stories...
It's virtually IMPOSSIBLE!
After typing for so long, I've only managed to ype CHAPTER 1 and a little bit of 2.
I want to type more bloggy entries but with the blogskin all messed up and stuff, it becomes a real pain!
I need a new blogskin.
Anime, off course.
I still regreted deleting the previous one, but I guess there's no point in moaning.
My current one is really kinda cute but there's the whole white space left below...(so unsightly!!!)
And the words are too small and it's in PINK.
(I have nothing against pink, it's just that it's so not my favourute colour!)

Oh well, guess I could share with you people reading my bloggie about our Sentosa trip last Friday!
Yoshi! Here goes~!

I was really happy, we wre FINALLY going to hang out with our frens though it's only for a short time only.
The bus came late...>.<
Hahas, but I guess thta didn't matter much.
While waiting for the bus, I shared some sad news with Ni-chan, Nosestud girl and Boo-chan.
What is it?
I can't tell...but the good news is that it probably won't come true.
Anyways, I almost squashed a lizard...ewwww...

Oh yeah. And Ni-chan interpreted a poster of a play in Delasalle(how you spell? I dun care) in such a funny way, we all kept laughing!

What did I bring for the trip?
Well...let's say some FORBIDDEN items like:
MP3 and Gameboy

The MP3 really made me smile but I didn't use the gameboy at all.

In the bus, I was listening to a couple of songs like DEAREST by Ayumi Hamasaki (I think I spelt it wrongly)from Inuyasha. (I almost cried as the song fitted my mood. Ni-chan was like: "Eh, dun cry leh. You cry like it's the end of the world!")
2 happy songs I really approve of: Hare Hare Yukai and Onegai My Melody's starting song sung by TAKEUCHI JUNKO-sama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But no way siaas~ I won't cry so easily one.

Then when we went to Underwater World, I dunno why I felt so HYPER and HAPPY that all my happiness could not be contained in my body and I felt like zooming around and screaming : YAHOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I didn't, or they would probably kick me outta there.
So insetad, I was trying to snap many pic of my frens. (Seriously, I was quite dissapointed at the little amount of pics I collected...)

But then...Ni-chan's tummy began to hurt and it didn't become that great anymore.
It continued to hurt for a rather long while and in the end, in the bus, I prayed for her.

This is what I said(between intervals of me trying not to laugh at Nosestud girl):

"Ok, Lord.I know you don't really bother about me anymore, but you created Ni-chan(I didn't say that)so I ask you to bless her throughout the trip and stop her tummy from hurting right now."

Well...it didn't happen instantly, but when we got off the bus, Ni-chan seemed rather well.
(Praise Lord)

And then...we had to wait for the show to start.
Ni-chan was really bored so she drew things in the sand like: "Aliens were here!" and a heart shape with the words "LOVE" written in it.

Mary and I took pictures of the art as we wanted it for our MSN icons.

And then when the show started, Ni-chan kept critizing about the narrater. I agree...the person was like retarded. Dragging her senteces when she didn't even have to.
It was quite miserable, actually. Hardly anyone clapped! >.< (I pity those irukas...)

And then there was the vending machine.
I dunno why but I said it was cool.
^^;

...

I wish more things happened.
But it was fun though! ^^

We should have more of these kind of outings!

I really really regret changinf the blogskin...
Why did I do it????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh well.

I think Reba-chan doesn't like me anymore.
She never listens nor talk to me happily anymore.

I guess having...

I think Okaa dun wanna go my graduation nite is because she don't want to see my not graduate.

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