Today's another horrible day. The whole piano exam thingy sucked. I sucked. he scales, oral, questions...I screwed up everything. Damn you Hikara...where were you? I needed that overflowing confidence of yours! But you tell me that setbacks are okay...I know. It's part of life. Auntie May was having such high expaetaions of me!!! Now I've let her down..When my okaa showed me the SMS Auntie May wrote, I felt even WORSE. She said that I was one of her best students. Damn. I cried, dammit. (Sorry for the language, but when I'm confessing this kind of embarrassing stuff, I kinda get touchy) Yes, I know that was stupid. Only weaklings and babies cry. Hikara called me an idiot. God, I didn't know where were you? God, please let me pass. I can't hate the examiner for showing no sympathy...(did she?(, or giving me such a horrible sight reading! Harbouring hatred is exhausting and it's one of the 7 most deadly sins...Is it MY fault? I was too nervous, Damn. Damndamndamndamndamndamn! The feeling of disappointing someone who thought SO high of you;so high expectations...it hurts. Okaa didn't say anything. But I'm sure she's disappointed. I wasted her money..................
Why do I have to live?
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The Blogger
Name: Rei
Race: Artist ALL HAIL MANGA, JAPAN AND THE LORD FOREVER MORE!!!
